was pretty pissed today. lotsa things happened. actually. i'm just pissed at her. her brains are kinda non-existent. what's the point of telling her when i won't be around, when she puts me down for duty on the EXACT days i'm not around. irritant. argh. pissed. she made me go find people to replace me and swap. how can she do that? it's HER job to do it. since she SCREWED it up. argh. pissed. anyway. now i owe my dear shirah a favour. shirah's nice. great friend. someone i can depend on. at least. not like brain-less tweet. anyway. then i told my daddy abt it. wait. i didn't even finish what i was supposed to say. and guess what? he blew up at me. calling me stupid like thousand and one times. can't stand it. i mean. here i am pissed at that brain-less tweet. and here is he scolding me for not standing up for my rights, and chasing people to take over me, and not scolding the tweet. great. i get scolded for being nice. and i get scolded STUPID. like MANY TIMES. so yeah. i'm just PLAIN STUPID. right dad? that's what you say i am anyway. i told u i wanted quits with them. u refused. YOU REFUSED. so now. everytime i take your car back from any meetings with them. we end up in a huge quarrel and you make me cry. everytime. EVERYTIME. so what's the point of you FORCING me to do something i totally DETEST doing? why can't u understand how much i HATE it? but well. i guess you don't care. cause it's for the prestige. tell me. which car ride, after you picked me up, did we not quarrel and me, end up crying? TELL ME. can't you see for yourself how much it's caused me to hate you too? i can't have a conversation with you anymore. cause you shut me out. you don't let me speak. YOU NEVER DO. why? too full of yourself is it? our "conversations" are either quarrels, tears or you and your silly, irritating speeches. you have totally no pr skills. go learn some pr skills. argh. irritated. angry. pissed at you. you need to learn to LISTEN. stop passing your comments when YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT's GOING ON. stop acting smart! you just make a fool out of yourself. you just lose all your credibility just by that few words. stop shouting. i'm not deaf. i can hear. CLEARLY. you really should think before you speak. it just shows how rash you are. and how retarded you can really be at times. argh. i promise never to bother talking to you again. if talking to you means ending up in a quarrel or getting irritated. forget it. it's a total waste of my time. YOU are a waste of my time.
i think i'm getting my period soon. i'm getting cranky and easily irritated and hot tempered. then again, it could be the lack of sleep. tired. hunger...
whatever it is. i still can't stand you. both of you. listen please. and think.
